REFLECTIONS LOFT

I was never a big Starbucks fan. I would occasionally get Americano and a pastry, but when Dark Cherry Mocha debut last March 9th there was no turning back. I was addicted! It’s a combination of fresh brewed espresso, bittersweet chocolate sauce, dark cherry flavoring, milk, whipped cream, and chocolate curls. It goes well with the chocolate marble pound cake Mmmm… yummylicious!

I’ve always loved this song, but just recently that I actually listened and internalized the lyrics. It gives me a message of HOPE… there is always hope with whatever is troubling us. It is hard to smile when you feel your whole world is crumbling down, but you’ll get by if you just smile.
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(A tribute to Charlie Chaplin taken from the stage version of “Smile”)
Words Written by John Turner and Geoffrey Parsons.
Music Composed by Charles Chaplin.
Produced by David Foster and Michael Jackson.

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it’s breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You’ll get by…
If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile if you’ll just…
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That’s the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what’s the use of crying
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you’ll just…
Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it’s breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You’ll get by…
If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you’ll just Smile…
That’s the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what’s the use of crying
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you’ll just Smile

Cheers!

I saw this movie with my girlfriends today and I just love, love, love the movie! It was very funny, cute, lighthearted, chick flick and I left the movie theater wanting to go shoes shopping. I am not a shopaholic per say, but when I get in the mood… I DO SHOP! And I love shoes!!! What girl doesn’t? I want the fuchsia pink shoes Isla Fisher was wearing at the end of the movie. Pretty, pretty, pretty fuchsia pink strappy stilettos. I am just drooling over it and hoping I can find something similar.

…my nails are. I got my manicure and pedicure done today at my usual nail salon in Factoria called Nail Touch. I’m not always happy with their work, but today there is this new girl Angel is her name, she worked on my nails and she is just amazing. She has a light touch, she does what you ask her and does a very good job. I learned that she works at another nail salon (Nail Design) which is the same owner of this nail salon I frequent and they’re only 2 blocks away. So in 2 weeks time, Angel here I come. It’s so funny, this morning I was ready to search my favorite nail technician from when we used to live on Lake Union over the internet and all I know was her first name. I was so desperate to drive to wherever she may be working just to get my nails done and look what luck brought me today – I found my “angel”. I would say I’m the finickiest person when it comes to my nails (ask Nasir he sees me inspect my nails thoroughly when I come home). It has to be done right, cuticles clipped clean, and nail polish applied close to the cuticle but not touching it.  I am so tickeld pink…

Last Wednesday both the boys had their annual physical. Zak is 4′8″ and 88 pounds and Humza is 3′2″ and 31pounds. They both got their vaccination and the doctor gave them a clean bill of health. VERY HEALTHY boys… until about 9:30pm when Humza came to me and said he’s got a tummy ache. And of course I didn’t pay much attention to it because everytime it’s bedtime something is up with him. I told him to go lay down on his tummy and it’ll go away. He came back to me 30 minutes later and said his tummy ache is not going away and his face was flushed and next thing you know he threw up. Then 15 minutes later he ran up to the bathroom and did again, and again, and again… until he was dry heaving at 2am and that went on until 8am. I never saw him so helpless and weak from vomitting and I couldn’t do anything to help him except rub his back and be next to him. He got so thirsty after awhile, but even a sip of water will make him vomit. Then diarrhea started, but that wasn’t as bad as the vomiting. I did not get any sleep at all. Saturday, he was getting so much better. I commend Humza for the fact that as weak as he was, he made sure he is in front of the toilet before he lets go of his vomit. For a 4 year old – yaay that’s awesome!

Late Friday evening Zak tells me he doesn’t feel well and he feels very weak… later he threw up and a new cycle begins again. And I joined Zak with his pain because I started having heartburn/indigestion feeling with a side of headache and then whatever he was going through I did too. Fortunately, both Zak and I didn’t get it as bad as Humza’s with the dry heaves but, we were very achy and weak and we did have our turn of vomiting and diarrhea and were in bed for 2 straight days. It took us until Monday to start feeling better.

Oh and my husband went to a business dinner on Saturday night, which was fine. Then he calls me and tells me at past 10:30pm that he was going to go see a friend of his for a couple of drinks. I was dumbfounded when he was telling me, but promised that he’ll be quick. So I said “ok” (thinking in my head “Dude you better be home in 90 minutes or just change your mind now). Here comes midnight – No Nasir – 1′oclock – No Nasir – 2′oclock – No Nasir. The good understanding wife that I am called him at 2:30am and he doesn’t pick up… after the 7th consecutive redial, he finally picked up and as soon as he said “hey Boo” I said “What the f@#$? you said you’ll be quick what time is it now? – thanks for taking care of your sick wife” and hung up on him. I’ve never bee so pissed at him. When he left for the business dinner, I didn’t want to say anything because it’s business – but the couple of drinks with a friend “Dude common sense” sick wife and kids or friend’s party? hmmmm. It should be a NO BRAINER! The whole time he was out, Zak would come to me and I couldn’t tend to him, Humza wants or need something, and I’m blah. I locked myself and Humza in the guestroom that night and for 2 nights that’s where I slept.

Monday, I started to feel better and I tried to stay up, sit up and do something, so I watched Breakfast at Tiffany’s with Audrey Hepburn and George Peppard. Very classy film. Loved everything about the movie. Moon River song is very enchanting! Audrey Hepburn was very glamorous and George Peppard was so dashingly handsome. I wish people these days still dress like back in the 50’s with class and style. I’ve always liked that.

At the end of the day, Nasir apologized (of course I had to bring it up by asking how the engagement was – if I didn’t ask he wouldn’t say anything). Hopefully he learned something and remembers it in the future. I also started a little craft project and I feel better and I haven’t even slept yet.

Now, I am off to get the kids to school and get my nails done – I think I deserve it! Hopefully it’ll be a good experience at the nail salon.

I watched a chick flick today while folding laundry. Made of Honor with Patrick Dempsey, he is just so irresistibly cute! I enjoyed the movie, it’s funny and romantic just what I needed something uplifting.

I do believe and learned first hand that you realize how someone or something really mean to you once you’ve lost them. But then again sometimes, it just have to be that way and you just have to accept it as difficult as it may be.

As the saying goes:

“If you love someone, set them free. If they come back they’re yours; if they don’t they never were.” –Richard Bach

“A soulmate is someone who has locks that fit our keys, and keys to fit our locks. When we feel safe enough to open the locks, our truest selves step out and we can be completely and honestly who we are; we can be loved for who we are and not for who we’re pretending to be. Each unveils the best part of the other. No matter what else goes wrong around us, with that one person we’re safe in our own paradise. Our soulmate is someone who shares our deepest longings, our sense of direction. When we’re two balloons, and together our direction is up, chances are we’ve found the right person. Our soulmate is the one who makes life come to life.” –Richard Bach

I am very blessed with my love life, my husband is my life, my “oxygen” without him I won’t be able to live or I would rather not. We’re opposite yet we’re so much alike. We truly are soulmates and I am very lucky to have him. He makes my life come to life and life will not be worthliving without him.

I have been feeling tired and enervated lately since I haven’t been getting any sleep. I feel like I’m in the wrong time zone. I can’t sleep until 4ish in the morning and have to get up by 7am on school days and if I don’t have any volunteer schedule or meeting at school I head back to bed after taking Humza to school and won’t wake up until 2:30 pm in time to pick him up. And on weekends, I don’t get up until 1pm. It’s just awful, I feel like I waste a day and it makes me feel lazy. I tried taking Rozerem, but it made me sluggish the next day for the whole day. I tried laying in bed and read, watch TV, count sheeps, stars, backwards, forwards – nothing works. It’s driving me insane.

I need to change my sleeping pattern – no – I want to change my sleeping pattern for sure I just don’t know how to start it. I want to have a disciplined daily routine even on weekends and exercise at least 3 times a week.

Another year has come and gone and now here’s 2009 – OMG! It sounds like it’s so in the future, but it’s the present.

Last year, I didn’t really have any New Year’s Resolution, but for this year these are my New Year Resolutions:

• To have a date with my husband once a month.
• To get back into scrapbooking and at least complete 2 layout every month.
• To begin teaching scrapbooking classes/workshops by Spring/Summer.
• To stop snacking past 9pm.

I’ve decided to reorganize my scrap space hoping that I’ll get my mojo back. I haven’t scrapped since November last year – deep inside I wanted to scrap, but haven’t had the creativity and motivation.